As life progresses, it gets manifested there are reasons for events to happen, for people to meet....for new relationships to be built.

And it has been hard to learn, but I am learning - organizations are not families...colleagues are not family members - so need not to expect the same degree of commitment, same intensity of care, same kind of integrity & honesty as I would have towards them.  More important learning - why should I have that kind of commitment and care for them as I would have for my family members.   

Ongoing times have strange mix of pain and peace.  Peace of mind on professional front, pain of being away from my family.....Mummyji, Namrata, Lakshanya, Devanshi.  They also need me.

Such a state of dilemma, really not able to fix the solution that is conducive to all fronts.  And then the thought prevails......would there be any such solution that will be conducive to all fronts? 

I need to stop procrastinating....

I need to find back some of my passions / stress busters - writing, reading, painting....


Over and above this, the list of people to write about gets added on...

Ajay Kapoor

Priyam, my niece

D K Goel

Ajay Koul

Prachi

Floating....where to?

Since an unknown point in time zone, I have become what I never wanted to be - amorphous, dithering, depleted, and with all this, just another guy in crowd, faceless.  Why do I feel so, I do not know.  Not that I do not have sufficient load of goals in life, I do have them.  I also have the knowledge that I need to achieve them.  I know how the people who matter to me (and to whom, I do matter) have been relentlessly trying to plug me out of this mode....

But why again I keep looking at life as an unending vicious circle for me, where I am stuck up, immobile, pegged to infinite depth leaving me no space to raise my head and breathe.

Coming back

Almost 4 years since I wrote here. 

Have been writing sporadically, and i don't know if anyone else reads all this....

Writing for self, reading to self :)

And these 4 years, life has moved through so many circles, and one amazing thing at least that has happened in these 4 years - birth of my second daughter, Devanshi.  

checklist of things / people / events / ideas I have to write about...not in any particular order:

Papaji

Myself....

Namrata

Laskhanya

Mom

Shipra

Sunil Ganesh

Ruchika

Simran

karthik

Christophe

Peter

Harjot

Papa

Damien

CBS

CBSAA

Vincent

Yavnika

Pranav

Poonam Verma

Dr. S S Gulshan

Mrs. Urmil Thussu

Atul Bhardwaj

Rajinder

Surender

Narendar Kumar

DDC Catalogues

Shaghel

Deepti

Mona

Jyoti

Puni

Aruna Giri

Jaya Wahi

S K Bajpai

Enam

Vasu

Amit Kamra

Bikash

Gaurav

Asheet

Narasimhan

Figin

Subhanshu

Mohd. Abdullah

Atul Talwar

Seema Bhambhani

Vinay Batra

A F Ferguson

Vivek Banga

BAS
Rajeev

Sanjeev Sagar

Rajiv M.

Vinamra

Piyush

Punit Suri

Salwan

Mr. Nandwani

Ajay Chopra

Chemistry lab

Phyics Lab

SP Singh

Engg Drg

Gagandeep Singh Sapra
Harleen

Harpreet, Bobby

Nayan

Dr. Sameer

Dr. Nalini saksena

New Year, New Phase - 2

As I was saying, 2009 was much an eventful year for me, for people in my life.  A new life got added this year - we were blessed with my daughter,  Lakshanya Priyadarshi.  She stepped into our life in a human form on March 2, and it has been a new life for all of us since then.  Everything is now focused towards her.....what to do, when to do, where to go, how to go....and in bigger sense, gives a new dimension to our overall thought process...overall planning for future....

Lakshanya has been a real blessing....to me, to all.  She is.

It was the morning of March 2, when she came into my arms, within 3-4 minutes of arriving in this world.  It was the most divine feeling, to see her, to see her movements, her little fingers, efforts to get adjusted to her new environment.  Her eyes were still closed, breathing normally, though the face was showing bit of discomfort.  I was holding her in my arms, her very tender feet touching me just below my chest.  After few seconds, she opened her eyes, for the first time, and looked straight at me.  It was an immediate connect, and  beyond time.

Next few hours were pure bliss for me, for Namrata, for all of us.  Since then, everyday is a new wonder, a new experience, mystery unfolding.

As I retrospect, I see her arrival a divine intervention.  She has helped all to be happy, to be able to manage all difficulties and stress.  Had she not been there, life would have been very tough.


Well, now over to 2010...the new year, the new phase.   2009 was the year when I became papa, and the year which would have impact on me, and many other lives in coming years.  2010 hence becomes the year of new phase for me.   I often used to feel that I have been a child blessed by God.  Last few weeks of 2009 made me believe this aspect more.  With every serious downturn, there was a twig of hope; with every loss, there was something or the other happening, giving me a subtle message that life goes on, think positive.

With this at back of my mind, I begin 2010.

New Year, New Phase

New year has started, 2010.  Sounds like a number driving a business plan or a vision document...like Vision 2020, Challenge 2010!

I feel that year 2009 moved much faster for me than many other yars in the past.  Though at end f almost every year, this kind of feeling does emerge, but this time, this year that went by, really knocking rapid.   And in this year, I did sleep the least ever in my life compared to previous years.  Something like more man-hours punched into much smaller can of time....more explosive kind of a year....

Almost two years....

Almost two years since I am writing here....and these two years have been very much eventful for me... the most important event has been the one which happened this year.....birth of my baby daughter...Lakshanya And another one - I am now on my own...rolling out my own venture....a combination of all those things I wanted to do, all the ideas i wanted to implement, right from data anlytics to setting up a food outlet :) also learnt a major lesson of my life in these years - never to trust an over sweet "friend" - he would be grinding the knife all along to stab you in the back, suddenly, without letting you shout in pain...leaving you almost finished... Resurrection - that is spirit of life, that is life. Life means to live, living means being full of life. Amen

What do I wish to do here.....

I do not wish to make this another posting board for news on business in India, rather for any kind of news....Internet is full of such signboards and websites.  Managing news items, keeping them afresh every hour  - it is surely not my cup of tea. So, you tell me, give me ideas on how to make it a good and active forum of interaction & exchange of ideas.   Since I have been in consulting for a long time now, about 15 years, I can share some snippets of learning.  There have been many great people I have met in life - I would like to write about them too.   And I also wish to share my thoughts, my aspirations.  

The Very First Blog

Haha, Better late than never! Finally, I have started to blog. Over past few months, I have been having a deluge of communication from people all over the world through Orkut, where people wanted to discuss so many things. Let me see if this mode (blog) would make it better for me and us to manage this communication flow. I really want to reply and write back to everyone who had posted her / his query or thoughts to me. As I also see from many other blogs, it is a good forum to share news and views, as well as personal thoughts, unmanifested array of thoughts, bubbles of ideas, and if nothing else, at least a mode of letting out everything that is in mind.....a good newer version of diaries people used to have years ago :) Cheers God Bless All, Naresh